Ever wondered what would happen if the authors we all study put down their quills and picked up Tinder? I tried to imagine what their profile bios would say, with a little twist on famous quotes. Tragic, romantic, maybe unhinged… Enjoy!
William S. Age 52 8 miles away “To swipe left, or not to swipe left… that is the question”
Bard by day, poet by night
Looking for a young Juliet (iykyk)
Fluent in iambic pentameter and the language of love ;)
Jane A. Age 40 12 miles away “It isn’t what we say or think that defines us, but who we crush on”
Sarcastic, witty, and independent
If you ghost me, I shall turn you into a cautionary tale
Darcy types only, no #Wickhams allowed
Virginia W. Age 59 4 miles away “Some people go to priests; others to poetry; I to Tinder.”
Swipe left if you’re not a feminist
Stream of consciousness included, no extra charge
Dating me would be a modernist slay
Byron the Lord Age 36 15 miles away “A mistress never is nor can be a friend.”
Poet. Rebel. Lover
Swipe right and I’ll take you on a trip to Switzerland
If you like your romances dramatic and your poetry passionate, let’s talk
Geoffrey C. Age 57 21 miles away “Love is blind but I ain’t”
Storyteller, poet, and OG road trip buddy
Fluent in Middle English (but I’ll translate for you, babe)
Let’s pilgrimage to the best pubs together
Mary S. Age 53 6 miles away “Looking for someone to bring my love life back to life.”
Into some weird kinks
Dark academia is my only vibe
If you’re emotionally unavailable, at least be interestingly tragic
Edgar P. Age 40 3 miles away “Nevermore will I swipe left for true love.”
Poet and ornithologist
I’m broke but I’ll write you love letters
Let’s make each other’s hearts beat a little too loud
Oscar W. Age 46 9 miles away “To match is the rarest thing in the world. Most people swipe, that is all.”
Witty and charming <3
#Fashionista
Looking for someone who appreciates the finer (and funnier) things in life
Emily D. Age 55 5 miles away “The soul should always swipe right, ready to welcome the ecstatic experience”
Looking for a long-distance relationship
Might write you a love poem, might just ghost you (literally)
Let’s overanalyze everything
And one last special profile… The man who assigned several texts published in this issue…
Douglas K. Age 70 0 miles away “Love is a battlefield, and sometimes we get wounded in the process”
Don’t even bother if you’re not going to write me 500 words everyday
I occasionally cosplay as a 9-year-old autistic French girl. It’s not what you think
The Luna Lux Base was the new crown jewel of the self-proclaimed Visionary Hundred, a group consisting of the twenty richest men in the world. Together, they funded this luxurious recreational settlement on the moon, which cost a whopping 2 trillion dollars to build. Devon Dusk, the mastermind behind this endeavor, convinced about half of his fellow Visionaries to follow him on a week-long trip to inaugurate the new base. The remaining half was skeptical because of Devon’s notorious failure to set up an inhabited Mars colony a few years prior, which caused the death of six astronauts. This time would be different, assured the maverick billionaire. After all, he had made structural adjustments to his space company, keeping only the most competent workers, and replacing the other ones with the company’s next-generation robots.
Delilah Grant, a veteran employee of Dusk’s space company, was to be the Mission Control Ground Commander during the upcoming flight to the moon. Although she profoundly disliked Devon Dusk, she was loyal to the company, or at least its long-term mission: to make humanity a multi-planetary species. Ever since she was little, Delilah dreamt of one day traveling into space. However, her heart condition, which she inherited from her father Jeffrey Grant, did not allow her to do so. Although the realization that she could never blast off in a rocket ship was crushing to 12-year-old Delilah, that didn’t dissuade her from contributing to humanity’s expansion in the cosmos. And so she studied rocket science, literally, and became the Chief engineer at Dusk’s space company. Behind every major innovation in rocketry was the hand of Delilah.
And so, on July 25, 2039, Devon Dusk and his opulent party ascended into the sky like the virile demigods that they were. They were now well on their way to reach Luna Lux within the next two days. As part of the company’s structural adjustment plan, Mission Control was almost entirely automated, except for Delilah who had to keep an eye on things, in case anything unexpected happened. This was not the case during the moon-bound trip of the Visionaries. They arrived safely at the new base, live-streaming the whole thing so that all of their followers could witness this most extraordinary moment in human history. Never have there been so many people on the moon at the same time! The number of viewers wasn’t what the Visionary Hundred were used to back in the good old days, but the success of their flight warranted popping a few bottles of Prosecco. The alcohol was perhaps necessary to make up for the relatively bland food coming out of the food synthesizer, which transformed the Visionaries’ organic waste into a nutritious paste. Even demigods had to make some concessions if they wanted to travel to space.
And so, as the richest men in the world were having a week-long booze fest on the moon, sharing all of it online, Earth and its inhabitants were struck by another heatwave. The southern United States was hit very badly. Delilah was worried. The news talked about many wet-bulb 35 incidents, where people dropped like flies and died because of the fatal mix of humidity and heat, which effectively impeded the body from cooling down. People like Delilah and her father, were particularly vulnerable to such incidents, which is why she always made sure to stay indoors in air-conditioned buildings. Not everyone could afford the energy bills resulting from air-conditioning, however. A little over a decade back, the administration of the now disgraced Ronald Chump forced the United States to adopt an expensive coal and gas energy mix, locking the country into fossil infrastructure, as the rest of the world moved on to cleaner and cheaper renewables. Even Delilah’s parents struggled with energy bills, despite their daughter being a Chief engineer. As part of Dusk’s structural adjustment plan, her salary was cut by a third. “Remember, we could easily automate even your job. So consider yourself lucky that I value you enough to keep you here,” the billionaire said in the e-mail announcing Delilah’s wage cut.
That was two years ago. Delilah stayed because of her passion for the job. But with the heatwave, and the Visionaries’ lavish lunar display, she felt sick to her stomach. A day before the scheduled return flight, a warning signal appeared on her display. Apparently, one of the company’s internet satellites was losing altitude and straying from its intended orbit. This happened every now and then, and the solution usually involved adjusting the orbit by remotely turning on the satellite thrusters for a minute or so. Delilah was just about to do that when she received a call from her mother, telling her that her father had collapsed because of the heat. He was going to be okay, but doctors said he could have died. For a while, Delilah couldn’t think straight. Her father could have died. He didn’t deserve this, nobody deserved this. Delilah was lost in her thoughts when the warning signals grew louder. Duty called. And so, she skillfully brought the satellite to a new orbit. She was done for the day.
The next day, she heard about internet outages hitting various parts of the world on the car radio, as she was headed for work. She didn’t think much of it. At Mission Control all systems were running perfectly for the return flight of Dusk and his billionaire friends. In the background, the automated systems were scrambling to course-correct the altitudes of hundreds of satellites. Word must have gotten to Dusk, as he directly contacted Delilah.
“What’s going on?”
“You mean the satellites?”
“Yes, the satellites, what else?!”
“Have you ever heard of Kessler syndrome?”
The other end of the line went silent. After a while, Delilah continued.
“Right now, dozens of satellites are crashing into each other, creating debris that will crash into more and more satellites, eventually enveloping the planet in so much satellite debris that any attempt to leave Earth’s orbit or re-entering the atmosphere would be a suicide mission, meaning that your return flight will have to be delayed.”
The silence on the other end gave way to a whimpering question:
“How much delay?”
Delilah kept a matter-of-factly tone.
“I’d say thirty, forty, maybe fifty years.”
Screams and cries on the other end. The demigods were now weeping.
Delilah kept her composure.
“I suggest you relax, and make good use of the food synthesizer and those rooms with a view on our beautiful Planet Earth. It’s gonna be a while. Oh, and don’t worry… from up there you can’t hurt her. Enjoy.”
___________________They were helping through sensation,
________________________They were cause of my agitation.
___________________Anxiety was building up
_______________And I couldn’t wake up
____________But was I asleep ?
_________I think we’ll never know
_____I am just lost with my thoughts now
___But at least…I am not alone.
War
Author: Lucrezia Ferraù & Nadiia Kulish
I don’t like uncertainty But, After the war, I come to terms with the idea That things can change And that, We cannot control… Everything, Anything.
Things are falling on our heads,
In our hands,
Red and swollen
In our sky,
Gray and heavy
Full of particles,
Of what a time we called LIFE.
A brief explanation of the two poems:
Trees is a poem about the intrusive thoughts that invade the mind of overthinkers and neurodivergent people, that develop thoughts in a tree-like structure (= arboressence) and about how overwhelming it can be.
War is a poem centered on the topic of the ongoing war in Ukraine. Made with the collaboration of Nadiia, Ukrainian student and refugee.
I know that time capsules work the other way around, but I hope that this postcard somehow found its way to the past. This card depicts the administrative district of Earth’s capital, Pangea.
See the globe in the middle of the square? That’s a hologram depicting the Earth as it is viewed in real time by Earth observation satellites. Pretty cool, huh?
From a specific angle, the blue olive branches on the two towers look as though they are embracing the globe.
As you can (hopefully) tell, things are better now. So, if you’re from, say, the early 21st century, don’t despair. Keep fighting against the monsters of your time. It’s about the long game.
To say that I am a fan of Mirion’s work is an understatement. She always hits her target: our feelings! With So Long Sad Love and her incredibly well written scenario, Mirion Malle gives us the trail of a toxic relationship and how to exit to find true peace.
Even though I do not quite like the -spoiler- happy ending because of the -oh so classic -: “you always have to find love to be happy.’’ It is truly a gem of independent comic.
By the way, she’s French! Go grab her books!
Fungirl – Elizabeth Pich
Have you ever seen a girl wearing a dildo in the kitchen she shares with her roommate? No? Well, now is your time to change that by reading the eccentric comic that Fungirl is.
We follow Fungirl in her daily life and the graphic novel is silly, outrageous but damn, so fun-ny! I’ve never seen anything quite like that. Try it and you might laugh your head off or perhaps not but that’s quite sad for you :)
Girl Juice – Benji Nate
Another crazy cuckoo girl story! Do I sense a pattern here in my readings? Mmmh… Living with roommates, the camaraderie between the girls is hilarious and yet real. Rent to pay, preys to seduc… uh boys to seduce, life crisis… Everything that makes a twenty something realise there’s so much more to life to live.
ON A SUNBEAM – Tillie Walden
If I had a franc every time I recommended this comic, I could buy a good mozzarella sandwich from the Anthropole cafeteria. Nonetheless, it is truly a masterpiece of science fiction. Queer, inclusive, fantastically written and drawn. What more could you ask for? The stories of two girls meeting and never letting go. + cool creatures and spaceships!
This is day 234 of war, I think…The days are hard to keep count of. The incessant screaming is like background music. We are stuck amidst this crisis between good and evil. Going to work every day is not a blessing. I have lost many friends, you make them as fast as you lose them here. We are the country side of Ukraine, it’s “safer” here. The village I am stationed at is ridden with the smell of death. In the age of quantum computation and the multiverse theory this all seems so futile. Yet we prevail in the name of glory…I just hope this will end one day. This is killing me but I am killing others, for what?
This rage I feel, I let it out on the anti-aircraft guns we are provided with knowing well that a soul is lost if I hit the plane. My colleagues are even crazier then me. They drink bleach and shoot the enemy by day, smoke by night, telling tails of a simpler life they had whilst bombs and lost bullets fall in the distance.
Luckily, Alison is safe at home with you, my precious little angels. She is a fighter, literally. I met a general by chance on a week I was able to escape from this dreadful situation. I taught her how to fight, she even went up against the general or at least someone who claimed to be it. We met him in a bar in Switzerland, while I was on vacation. The man was a coward…got beaten up easily by a 20 year old girl, thinking he was the king of the world. Probably had an ego complex or something thinking he could win against our daughter. Nevertheless it was a fun encounter, we got drunk and just let our problems at the door. We did talk about one subject that stuck with me, patience is key. He told me удачи тебе and we went our separate ways.
This letter might get to you but everything is so uncertain right now. In this darkest hour always remember this. Failure is not fatal, it’s the courage to continue that counts. I think it was some bloke who said this during the second war. Even though in this case, one shot in the right place may mean that I will never see you again.
The silvery glass, framed in what seems to be, white, dotted plastic. Reflected in it, a twin of his, creating, showing, infinite times the same room – or the same part of room pink, girlish, a red bow and again – a grey one and dead flowers too dead yellow mimosas held together by a yellow, old piece of yarn. And a girl, or a woman – oh, it must be the owner for her shirt matches, controls, the pink room behind her and the dead mimosas.
But wait, you know that girl! The shadow is familiar, though her hair… Her hair is different and her eyes, there is a light within them – a light that was not there, when you knew her. Oh, she looks like she knows it, she looks like she knows you! The light in her eyes, that sparkles in the blue irises, it says that – she won’t listen – no, she won’t listen to you nor to the other people she knows, who do not know her no more
No that can’t be right, that girl – no, for she is not a girl no more – she is a woman – no, not quite she is, in between but firmly – yes, firmly! – convinced she is fully grown.
That stubborn girl-woman (impossible to know her height – why, has it just changed?) with her eyes, her blue eyes lit and her hair, once black, short, tidy, is now – wavy and messy.
She touches her hair, moves it away from her face – but wait, you are doing the same! So you were quite right! You are that girl-woman. And she looks proud – I mean – you do and sure that Was ich weiß, kann jeder wissen. Mein Herz hab‘ ich allein Or – do I?
It claws at you. At the back of your mind. Always. You don’t notice it, not really. Not usually. You are so used to it, that its constant nagging only really becomes noticeable when it becomes unbearable.
The first time it becomes unbearable you are surprised. Its poison slowly taking over your mind but quickly, quickly, quickly paralysing you from the inside out is unexpected. You stare at your page for hours on end, its poison hand in hand with the fear of failure numbing your brain.
You learn that it is not as you thought. You did not take a bite out of a poisoned apple, but you were drip-fed the poison over two decades of constant belittling. The constant
‘you are not good enough’ ‘you are not trying hard enough’ ‘you are not intelligent enough’ ‘you are not enough’.
And later, when you find out why,
‘it is in your head’ ‘it is not real’
Sometimes behind your back and from your peers, but oftentimes to your face and from your superiors. Those supposed to nurture. They plant the seeds and watch their weeds invade.
But you don’t often notice it, not really. You have grown used to it. Over the years. The constant nagging becomes unbearable when you find something you love. When this something you love should be something you hate. But against all odds, you love it. You care.
You have hopes and you have dreams, but you know that fulfilling them is unlikely.
MUSE asked students to anonymously submit their opinions* on what crazy invention would be useful to improve your time at UNIL. Here are the answers we got from them! Some are genius, some should just be common sense… Conclusion: students are tired.
*Replies have been edited for clarity.
Answers
A napping area with beds to take a nap in between lessons
something a bit like a coffee vending machine, but it gives anti-procrastination juice instead
A printing network that works and is straightforward to use
Sleep cabins for brief power naps, available for individual student use 20-30 minutes at a time, up to five times per semester 🤪🤪
Common evaluation grid for literature essays
it would be really cool to have an audio file for every class reading we have to do. This way we could just listen to the readings on the go, instead of rushing to read everything the night before because we forgot about it 🙈
Not exactly a crazy invention, but just more toilets at Anthropole. There have been too many incidents where all of the stalls on the same floor were occupied when I needed to use them. Not sure how it would be done logistically though
a super cheap meal option at the cafeteria. like it could just be the same pasta with the same sauce everyday. but it would be cheap, like 2 francs. i’d spend less time cooking without having to spend 10 bucks every day
Coffee machines and (accessible) microwaves on every floor
Caffeine pills for when you’re in a rush for class and don’t have time to drink coffee at the cafeteria :’)
AAR: Thank you so much for meeting with us today and accepting to share a little bit about yourself with our readers! It’s an honor to interview a staff member who was in our shoes some years ago. Your area of interest seems to encompass many topics, from language to mental health and sexuality. I’m sure people will enjoy learning more about your research. How are you doing today? Only a couple days before Spring break! (The interview was conducted on March 25).
Thank you for the invitation. It’s really a pleasure to have students interview someone who is not really a permanent staff member [laughs]. But yeah, I’m doing fine; a little tired though. I’m looking forward to a little break.
Alicia: You’re brand new to the Department but first-years all know you from IELL. Could you tell us more about yourself? Who are you? Where are you from? Where have you studied and worked?
I was born in 1990 and raised in Gstaad in the Canton of Bern to Portuguese parents. I did all my mandatory schooling in Gstaad, but then after 9th grade I didn’t have good enough grades to continue my studies. My parents would say “if you don’t study, then we’ll send you back to Portugal,” which I’ve always found very ironic, because I’ve never lived in Portugal. So, I did a raccordement in Château d’Œx and then I was able to do my gymnase in Burier. I ended up at UNIL where I studied English and Film. I also spent a year at the University of Montana in the US during my BA, which was literally the best year of my life! It was really fun and that’s when I saw the usefulness of what I was studying.
Before then I didn’t really know why I was at university and why I was studying literature and film. One of the reasons I wanted to be here was because I wanted to be a movie director. But I quickly realized that the Department of Film History and Aesthetics here wasn’t going to teach me the required skills to become a movie director. And I decided to study English because I wanted to write better songs in English. Those were really the naive reasons of a young adult who didn’t know what to do with his life! And then in the US, I took a class on literary criticism where we learned about Marxism, feminism, queer theory, etc. And that’s when I realized that the things that I was learning were useful. So I shifted to linguistics during my Master’s, because I got a bit sick of literature. I just didn’t see the point of doing literature, whereas linguistics has that practical aspect that I really liked. By learning how language works in society, I could also make sense of how I was using language in my daily interactions and how people were using language with me. I actually took one of the first classes Anita taught at UNIL, on language and gender, and I wrote a paper about OCD (obsessive-compulsive disorder) for it. Then I wrote my Master’s thesis on OCD with Anita. Since there were only a handful of linguistics studies on OCD at the time, it gave me the idea of doing a PhD about that topic.
So, I got a funding opportunity in London in 2017, and I defended my thesis in 2021 while I was in quarantine because of COVID [laughs]. Anyway, Queen Mary University of London was very chaotic. It was not well organized, compared to Lausanne. But I was really lucky, because I did my PhD with 24 other PhD students. We had a big office that we shared and there was a really nice communal family atmosphere. My supervisor had 4 other PhD students who were all studying language, sexuality, and gender. We had discussions about the theories we were reading, the data that we were analyzing, and it was just an overall very stimulating environment. And on top of that, I was lucky because my funding was coordinated between King’s College and Queen Mary. At King’s College I had my co-supervisor, Olivia Knapton, who was the only linguist working on OCD at that time. And at Queen Mary I had my supervisor, Erez Levon, who is a big specialist in language, gender and sexuality. Being in London at that time was really the perfect moment for my PhD.
And then I came back to Switzerland! Since I didn’t have a job, I signed up for the HEP (Haute École Pédagogique). While I was studying there, I was also chargé de cours here in the English Department where I helped out our linguistics team with IELL and also taught a seminar on discourse analysis. I kind of stuck around and now I am replacing Jennifer Thorburn who is on sabbatical leave. But my contract is ending at the end of July and then… I don’t know what will happen to me! [laughs]
AS: So you’ve experienced the Department from both sides! How different did the Department feel when you were a student? Did you have a feeling one day you’d be back?
Definitely not! [laughs] When I was doing my Bachelor’s degree, I didn’t even know what a PhD was. But to answer your question, I’ve always preferred the English Department compared to the Film Department. The English Department welcomed our own interventions. It was never like “I’m the teacher and I’m giving you the knowledge and you sit there quietly, and you just absorb what I’m telling you.” The English Department, at least that was my experience, encouraged the sharing of impressions, and ideas. And that was, I think, one of the best ways to explore the different theories and the different books. That’s also something that I try to do in my own teaching. Now that I am part of the teaching team, my opinion hasn’t changed much of the Department.
AS: We were quite impressed to see that you’ve participated in Switzerland’s Got Talent while you were still an MA student! What was more stressful, performing on national television or defending your mémoire?
That’s a good question! [laughs] In terms of emotions, I think it’s very similar, in the sense that you experience anxiety and the fear of failure. But on television, I think the stakes are a bit higher, because you can face social repercussions, right? If you fail on national television, people might recognize you on the street and laugh at you. Whereas for the mémoire, my family was present, and I was in a safe space. In terms of the stress levels, I think it was the same. Although with Switzerland’s Got Talent, one of the things that people don’t realize when they watch the clip is that I arrived at 12:00 PM and I had to wait until 8:00 PM before entering the stage. I remember waiting for 8 hours while reading Derrida for the Critical Approaches assignment! I have that memory of being stressed, trying to focus and relax with Derrida [laughs].
AS: So that would be your advice against stress, reading Derrida?
No, no, no. [laughs] Do something to distract yourself. I like to watch horror movies when I’m very anxious because it levels out my anxiety. But that’s just me, other people do yoga and meditation, play video games, or something else.
Elvis on stage at Switzerland’s Got Talent
AS: Do you still write songs and play the guitar nowadays?
Unfortunately not, because my priorities have changed. Back in the day, I wanted to be a rock star. And now my priorities are basically my job, so I don’t really have time to write songs, although I have about five different songs that I’ve started writing. But I just never got the energy to sit down and finish those songs. I think I also don’t have the motivation for it. I’m not going to gain any money from it. Why invest much energy in that when reading about linguistics is as interesting as writing songs?
AAR: So you used to write songs and you used to write poetry. Your poems can still be found on MUSE’s website…
Oh God. [laughs]
AAR: Do you remember them, and do you still write creatively?
I don’t write creatively anymore, no. I journal whenever I feel down or anxious. Writing is always useful to have an objective perspective on your problem, because if you don’t write it, the problem stays in your head. Writing really allows you to shift your perspective and to tackle the whole thing in more objective terms. It’s nice to know that my poems are still on the website! [laughs] I think one of the poems was about my guitar…
AAR: There was one about Derrida!
There was one about Derrida, yes! I experimented with the notion of understanding and not understanding. Derrida is one of the intellectual figures that I really like, as well as Foucault. I have all his books on my bookshelf [points to office bookshelves]. I refer to them as “Tonton Jackie” and “Tonton Michel,” just to remove them from their pedestal and remember they’re just human beings. Coming back to my poems, I think there was one about my guitar and another one where I tried to embed three poems in one. When reading the even lines and then the odd lines and then the whole poem, it creates three different poems. Those poems were written when I was taking a class on creative writing in the US, because I thought it would be really useful for my songwriting. But I haven’t written any poems since then. Life happens, priorities changed.
AAR: Now you devote your time to linguistics! You once told me that you consider yourself more of a social scientist than a linguist. Can you tell us more about that?
My relationship to linguistics is very complicated. I started off as a literature student, and at the beginning I thought linguistics was difficult to understand. Though I never failed linguistics, unlike medieval that I failed twice [chuckles]. I also associated linguistics with those structuralist schools of thought like Chomsky, or syntax trees, all these technical things that don’t fascinate me. Even when I started doing sociolinguistics, and discourse analysis, I always struggled to identify as a linguist. When I was writing my MA thesis and my PhD thesis, I would have lengthy discussions with my supervisors about “am I doing linguistics? Is discourse analysis linguistics?” My supervisors always told me, “if you don’t trust yourself, at least trust us because what you’re doing is linguistics.” So that’s why I’m not a linguist, I don’t walk around with all the theoretical linguistic knowledge. I know where to find the information in my notes or in the slides that I created. But it’s not the kind of thing that I keep in my mind all the time. So I prefer to refer to myself as a social scientist, who uses linguistic and sociolinguistic theories to better understand social and psychological phenomena. I’m not interested in linguistic theory per se. I don’t care about comparing grammatical structures of different languages. I’m interested in how people make sense of their lives, how people make sense of the different social, social and sexual norms that they have to navigate in their daily lives, how people describe their symptoms when they are ill, what kind of ideologies they draw on when they construct their identities. These are things that we do all the time. Having a theory that allows me to explain those different processes has turned me into a more empathetic person towards other people, but also towards myself. I understand the world differently. And this is something that literature didn’t give me in the past. I was reading Mary Shelley, Bram Stoker, John Donne, Baldwin, all those different authors. But it wasn’t enough for me. It was fun to interpret those books but… how can I be sure that my analysis is sound enough? There was something lacking, and that’s what linguistics gave me: a practical kind of knowledge that is based on empirical observation. And then, of course, with linguistics, it’s not just about language structure, but also sociology, psychology, etc. It’s highly interdisciplinary and that’s what I like about what I’m doing. I’m an interdisciplinary scholar. I’m not an expert in linguistics, I’m not an expert in sociology, I’m not an expert in psychology. I’m somewhere in between, and I’m trying to understand how the different theories work together. That’s why I have a hard time identifying myself as a linguist.
AS: Your work on OCD has also led you to organize a conference, which is a very interdisciplinary and tangible project! Students taking “The Language of OCD” can validate their credits by presenting a poster at the “OCD in Society” conference. Can you tell us what “OCD in Society” is and how it came about?
I organized that conference for the very first time in 2019 when I was in London doing my PhD. And the idea came out of the observation that most studies on OCD were done in psychology and used statistical tools. At the time there were very few qualitative studies on OCD that explored how people with OCD made sense of their illness, how they struggled to find therapy. All these meaningful practices were not really explored. So I thought, why not organize a conference where the goal is simply to bring together different scholars from different disciplines who have an interest in studying OCD from a non-quantitative perspective? The 1st edition welcomed linguists, sociologists, psychologists, anthropologists, literary scholars, and even artists. That was very important to me because in London there is this community of OCD sufferers who are artists and whose artwork I wanted to showcase. Now I’m organizing the 4th edition of the conference and unfortunately, I cannot invite artists, because we don’t have enough funding. But the topic of the conference is connected to that seminar that I’m teaching, so I just thought it would be nice if students could actually contribute to the knowledge of OCD from a qualitative perspective. Instead of writing the typical essay or doing the typical oral presentation, they can create a poster that summarizes the research project that they will do during the semester. I’m sure that whatever they will do will be new and groundbreaking, because up until today, there are only 12 or 13 linguistic studies on OCD!
AAR: Are you working on any research or is that on the back burner for now?
Unfortunately, I’m not paid to do research [sighs]. I have a couple of articles in mind that I would like to publish. One of them is part of my PhD thesis that looks at how people who identify as LGBT+ talk about their obsessive fears of not being LGBT+ and how that is connected to heteronormativity. The other paper questions how normativity is researched in queer linguistics. Basically, we often refer to normativity as a spectrum ranging from what is normative to non-normative. However, that doesn’t capture expressions that denote quantification and signal a non-normative status like “this penis is too short”, “these breasts are too huge”, “he is not trans or straight enough”. These examples seem to imply that these extremes are not normative. What is normative is somewhere in the middle. So instead of seeing normativity as a straight spectrum, I also see it as a U-shaped spectrum. I think that they are two sides of the same coin. I’m really interested in theorizing how language is used to express such normative stances. How people negotiate the extremes to decide what is normative. I would love to write an article about that.
AS: In a nutshell, you’re busy with school! Subbing for Jenn, teaching at the language center… Can you tell us about the other classes that you’re teaching and that you’ve taught? Do you have a dream class that you would like to teach someday?
I’ve already taught my dream classes! [chuckles] At UNIL I’ve taught IELL, both the lecture and the tutorials. I’ve taught “Introduction to Discourse Analysis” several times. I taught a Master seminar, “Language and Sexuality” last year, “The Language of OCD” this year, and “Language and Health” last semester. When I was doing my PhD thesis or even being a student here at UNIL, I would have never thought that I would teach a class on OCD since that’s not what linguists usually teach. But here I am.
AS: How would you describe your teaching style?
I’m always thinking about how I can teach my students specific things in the most efficient way. At the end of their degree, humanities students are very often not aware of the skills that they learned for their future jobs. I try to make students conscious of the acquired skills. Last semester, some of my students had to do an oral presentation, so I showed them what good oral presentations are and then I gave them an assessment grid where different skills were evaluated, not only the content of their presentation, but also their body language, and paralinguistic features. I think those are just important skills that students need to be conscious of when applying for a future job.
AAR: So you’d say that the HEP was influential in the way you teach now?
Oh yes, definitely. The HEP does have its issues [laughs], but there are some classes, especially one about assessment strategies, that completely revolutionized my way of thinking about assessment. Some people are against assessment grids for various reasons. But I have seen how valuable it is to explicitly state what students will be assessed on and to use that grid to give targeted feedback. I also witnessed the efficiency of learning by teaching. So that’s something that I try to use as much as possible in my seminars. I ask students to explain to each other what they understood from the reading. They then share their impressions, and I’m always there to guide the interpretation, based on my own knowledge and previous experience.
AAR: One of the reasons we wanted to interview you is precisely because you’re a temporary member of staff and are leaving in August. What do you have planned for the future?
[Laughs] I sent my CV to the HEP. I had job interviews. I’m still waiting for a response. I also sent my CV to two different gymnases. I’m hoping that the English Department will still need me, so that I can extend my contract, but up until now nothing is settled. In August I’ll only have 20% at the language center and I have to fill the rest with something else!
AAR: Let’s get down to the nitty-gritty: lightning round! Favorite color?
I hate those kind questions! [laughs] I’m just going to say blue without knowing if that’s my favorite color. I like it because I think that’s the color that I often wear, but I don’t think consciously that’s my favorite color.
AS: What’s the last book that you’ve read?
The last nonfiction book I’ve read is called The Identity Trap by Yascha Mounk. The whole book criticizes left-wing politics for their extreme take on tribal identity politics by arguing that this furthers the rise of far-right ideologies, and suggests a way of finding a common ground between different social groups by endorsing universalist values.
And the last fictional book I’ve read was a graphic novel called In, by Will McPhail, which is a very beautiful, very simple graphic novel about meaningful relationships and how important it is to have banal social interactions and not being afraid of sharing something personally with each other.
AAR: The last TV show you watched?
Yesterday, I finished the 4th season of You.
AS: Cats or dogs?
Oh God. [laughs] I didn’t grow up with animals. But I now own 2 little cats because of my girlfriend: Balou and D’Artagnan, and they’re very cute. So I’ll say that I’m a cat person in becoming. [laughs]
Balou & D’Artagnan
AAR: Controversial opinion?
Yeah… The song “Wonderwall” by Oasis is overrated.
AAR: Favorite album of all time?
Oh no! I like so many things that it’s impossible to put one at the top.
AAR: Recent album that you liked, then?
One that I listen to very often on repeat now is Blink 182’s One More Time that they recently released. But it’s not my favorite. I will recommend a music genre, instead. I’m really into synthwave, it’s a genre that uses music styles from the 80s, with contemporary themes. I love groups like The Midnight, Ollie Wride, FM-84, At 1980, Max Cruise, The Strike. The Weeknd also has some synth wavy songs. The 1975 sometimes go into that mood. Any synthwave that uses saxophone is a treat for me.
AS: Favorite place to vacation?
[Laughs] It’s really difficult. Again, I don’t think in terms of favorites because it excludes the rest of things that I like. It’s a very post-structuralist way of thinking, because if you have a favorite then you also have a non-favorite!
AAR: You’re thinking too much! [laughs]
I know, I know, but that’s my intellectual journey! I’ve read all these different theories and I’ve tried to incorporate them into my life. But if I had to recommend a place: a road trip through Portugal, not just going to the touristy places like Lisbon, Porto or Algarve. Go through the whole country, because the landscape is constantly changing and that’s really beautiful. I would also recommend a road trip across the West Coast of the US, through Montana, Utah, Arizona, Nevada, California, Oregon, and Washington state. That’s really a lovely road trip.
AS: Tell us one thing your students would never guess about you.
I bungee jumped two years ago. [laughs] And then, I suffered from a kidney stone and the doctors thought it was because of the bungee jumping… like I’d dislocated the kidney stone!
Elvis mid-jump!
AS: Favorite place in Anthropole?
[pauses then laughs] I don’t like the Anthropole as a building, so I don’t think that I have a favorite… No, yes, I do have a favorite place in the Anthropole, it’s the cafeteria. I like talking to our mamas downstairs, and it’s nice because they talk to me in Portuguese and they always call me like então menino, “what’s up little boy”, and that’s so endearing. It gives me those really familiar “mama” vibes that I got from my mom! [laughs]
AS: If you had to compose a theme song for the English Department, what would you name it?
Hmm, that’s a very good question. [pause] “Talk, Talk, Talk!” Because we always want students to participate in our lessons, and when I was a student that’s the thing that I liked most about the English seminars. So yeah, it’s also a wink to Rihanna’s “Work, work, work.”
AS: To the same beat?
[singing] Students gotta talk, talk, talk, talk, talk, talk, we just want them to talk, talk, talk, talk, talk, talk…
AS: Thank you so much for sitting with us! It was a real pleasure to get to know you better. Is there anything else you’d like to share with MUSE?
Yeah! So, keep doing the work that you’ve been doing for all these years, right, one generation after the other. I think it’s really important. And, a message to all students: just be mindful of the skills that you acquire, because even if you’ve spent hours analyzing language or literature, those analytical skills are important. You stand out from students of the other faculties who don’t have those linguistic analytical skills. If you can somehow highlight them in your CV, I think that would be really great!
if we spoke we lied the truth was false too i needed to see my reflection in your eyes if we saw delphie s oracle she would tell us what is not and it would become tell me i will become i will i promise
II.
It came upon me like the heart of an oncoming storm Or a vision of a fate like death That if you saw the woman in my mirror You would not know who she was. If you saw the woman that I am In the privacy of my own mind You would understand her no more than you understood The slim facets of her you glimpsed that summer.
III.
There is no heaven here, nor salvation. In the cold tomb of the Capulets. There was none neither in your arms Only dead birds, limp feathers.
The flesh beneath the scab is only ever half healed. You never let it scar. You don’t want to find another heart to fidget with, And find yourself at the end of the summer with twice as many scared arms.
An old woman will pick up a ruined doll from a playground at dusk, She will cradle the young thing’s face. Wipe away the bootprint stains And give it back some grace.
Do you know what Taylor? I get it. I need to know if it’s chill That she’s in my head. Because I’ve been to this well before And the water I pulled up Was not nearly clean.
And in pouring it down the other one’s throat I drowned them in could have been.
II.
I wonder if I should stop this — Writing about us. How many autopsies Can you carry out On a three month old Killed by your own neglect Before trying to resuscitate it.
As if, were it alive, You would escape the inferno of your guilt.
III.
Muggy, nearly suffocating September evenings. Two dead birds decomposing on the concrete. “This has come before, it will come again. And then, surely it will end.”
A slight subtle move, barely noticed… at first. A small gentle pulse, slowly leaving the hidden side of the heart; less than a low murmuring rumble, but still… echoing throughout the whole chest and silently crawling its way along the shivering nerves.
It’s awake.
Emerging from its long lasting slumber, it raises its head and stretches its neck, its back and tail, twisting and rolling as the dreams fade away. It coils around a now constricted beating core, sneaking in-between the drunk liver, hissing lungs and the addicted spleen, bumping against the bars of its thoracic cage.
It’s locked still.
But yearns to free itself. So it grows, enlarges and soon fills every inches of space. It strikes in despair at the walls of its prison like a trapped animal; and beats, bangs and bashes, smites, slaps and punches… until one rib dislodges itself from the spin. One, two, three… and the beast is free. Gnawing its way up to the base of the skull, up to the inner ear, it whispers to the soul in a long cold sepulchral breath:
“Let… me… out.”
One, two, three more sips to drown the pest and wash any thoughts away; its existence has to be forgotten once more. Four or five in the early morning, the hour glass is flooded and time is mired in sand. There is no escape. And the end is creeping closer and closer. The pressure both from in and out compressing the brain in anguish, forcing it to kneel and cower on itself. Six or seven, less than ten… that’s how many seconds it has left. And the mind knows; the mind fighting still in agony, the mind losing the game and still, itself; the mind trying to hold onto its dying corps knows what lies at the end.
If it wins.
It scratches, tears and rips the flesh with its claws, eating its way out to burst out of its host. Wearing only bloody skin and shadows upon its bony unworldly body; hidden in the shade, hidden on the dark side of the heart; it awaits its time. And under its gloomy glowing eyes smiles but a grin of pure darkness and warped teeth, drooling of anger and rage.
I wish I was a ship Captain To sail afar and leave at sea, To run away and once be free; To escape shores I’ve known too long To realms I may feel to belong. My crew will hear: raise the anchor! Do not turn back, have no rancor! Full speed ahead, to the unknown! New lands out there have to be shown.
If just I was a ship Captain I’d have all I dreamed of, for sure I’d feel the wind of adventure Swells up my sails and shakes my ship And sends me on my one last trip. To islands of the purest sand Under sky made of artist’s hand. New shores never by man explored Of mysteries too long ignored.
I wish I was a great Captain To seek far off and primal woods Hiding magic misunderstood. Remote jungles so exotic Colors and scents are erotic; Dazing taste of forbidden fruits Bringing back to humankind’s roots. All treasures I could bring back home Once I would have finished to roam.
I wish I was my own Captain So I could choose where I’d sail; So I could write down my own tale. With the night sky as only guide, And my dearest friends by my side, I’d stir my vessel off its path And fight against every wave’s wrath. I wished I was, but I am still A shipless sailor that hopes will, One day, be Captain by all means Riding his raft made of dead dreams.
Oh dear when I say that I’m ready to grow older
And when I trace kisses on the back of your shoulder,
Know that in my tongue it means ‘love, love, love’
To build a home from a word, one pain,
And so have a roof to keep out the rain
And stand in its ruins when the wrath of our joy will come from above.
(If one day I could find that your hand fits in mine,
On the isle of wonder, washed up by the tide,
Then no deed nor sin shall have a meaning I know
And there’s no way in hell that I will let you go.)
But still to this day I find my hands empty,
No crown on my head, and no “my fair lady”
My memories are one lonely memorabilia;
(but no love comes from a pen,)
Oh I’m broken in lacheism,
Waiting in ellipsism,
I’m as mad as Ophelia.
(so drown me then.)
The wind and the ocean speak in my tongue
And Death tries to lure me, to love her with song;
On this cliff I scream and if still no one comes I’m afraid I will fall.
(and if we are to be phantoms, let our shrouds be paper-thin;)
And if no heart can find in mine a twin,
Let frost cover all of my loveless skin.
It seems that my fate was to be the loneliest monster of all.
(but promise me one thing, dear.)
Let me haunt nightly shores
Where the dark water roars,
And may mariners cover their ears,
Let them grip their boat’s railing in fear
And whisper “don’t heed the call!
Let her cry in the squall,
She’s the loneliest siren of all.”
(please tell me you
are the one
who shall
kill me.)
