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2024 – Winter

From his prison of a mountain

Author: CZ

From his prison of a mountain, he watches us.
He watches us as we march in the streets towards our future,
He watches us as we wreck the Mending Walls into a bridge,
He watches us as we crack the codes of propaganda’s game,
He watches us as we cry for our brothers and sisters around the world,
He watches us as we tear off the chains around our voices,
He watches us as we see past the glamour of fae
celebrity,
He watches us as we scream a NO! into the
cycle of hurt,
He watches us as we reveal the hoax
of the Dream,
He watches us as we set free
the conditional of love,
He watches us as we
get up from the bed of
conformity,
He watches us
as we carry his fire,
He
watches the
eagle recoil in
fear,
From
his prison of a
mountain,
Prometheus
descends.

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2024 – Winter

A Journey of Emotions

Author : N.R.

I.
There’s a thickness in the air,
It feels like life never was fair. 
Why did you abandon us?
Left to drown, hearts filled with pus.
Anger rushes through my veins,
Peace no longer reigns.
Where do I go from here?

II.
Tear tracks stain my face,
I’ve finally found my place.
We must stay strong,
The fight will be long.
We must never surrender,
To stop would end her.  

III.
It’s been a rough ride,
Victory finally by our side.
Gone are the feelings of pain,
Only strength to gain.
A long nap, I shall take,
Content, will I wake.

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2024 – Winter

Ask-the-Students: If You Could Go Back in Time and Talk to Your Past Self, What Would You Tell Them?

Image: © Roger Ce, Unsplash License, Source.

MUSE asked students to anonymously submit their opinions* on what what they would tell to their past-self. Here are the answers we got from them! Some are sweet, some are the harsh truth and some just good advice.

Conclusion: there is hope and there is light at th end of the tunnel and don’t hesitate to ask for help!

You’re gonna get through the dark times!

*Replies have been edited for clarity.


You found the right person for you.

Be more gentle with yourself, and understand that just because you do someone a favour you cannot expect the same in return or you will continously be disappointed. We are all different.

Do not apologize to people who disrespect you and don’t care about you!

Don’t be too hard on yourself!

You will meet people along the way.

Keep the good memories and don’t be sad to see people go; sometimes it’s for the best.

Letting go doesn’t mean the end, but the start of something new.

Hey! It’s gonna be okay!

You’ll be fine. It’s hard right now but you will make it through.

You’re gonna be awesome!

Don’t lose your iPad!

You’re gonna be able to talk to people and they probably won’t kill you if you hang out with them.

The thing you’re experiencing is anxiety, go talk to a therapist for the love of God!

Stop comparing yourself to others! It’s harmful to your mental health and well being. No one is perfect or has everything figured out. This will make it easier to progress in your life!

Do NOT erase the entirety of your computer accidentally! (This is higly specific, and yet the only thing going through my mind right now).

Nothing. I don’t want to risk changing something and not ending up where I am now. I quite like my life as it is. Maybe I’d ask her to go talk to that one girl though.

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2024 – Winter

Winter

Author : Federica Mazzella

What it was in that

Winter Night

froze in time —

and I keep —

cherishing it,

holding it tight to

my Chest —

as the ice dissolves

and the only

thing left of it is

the memory

and cold blood —

stinging.

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2024 – Winter

No Return Flight

Author: N.R.

It was a warm autumn day as I made my way through the bustling streets. Humming a slow tune, I saunter towards my next stop. 

How long has it been since we last came here together, hand in hand? The laughter we once shared, echoes in my ear as I push the door open. The strong yet welcoming scent of ground coffee beans fills my nostrils. I find myself gravitating towards a well-lit display of carefully curated delights. 

The owner greets me from his place behind the counter.

“It’s good to see you again! Did life get busy?” he asks. 

“Yes. Things just have a way of building up in such a short time. Had to take some time off.” I offer as an answer. 

As we continued to make small talk, I could not help but feel a twinge of sadness. It wasn’t long ago that we were here sharing desserts and sipping on drinks.  Now here I am. Alone. 

I make my order and head for an empty table. I watch as people trickle into the café, laughing amongst themselves. At a nearby table, friends are passionately talking about the places they plan to visit. As their chatter continues, my mind starts to drift, as it often does these days. 

Floating through clouds, I find myself remembering our last few discussions. Unlike before, your eyes now held the look of someone who had given up. No longer were we sharing the same goal of reaching destinations we once gushed about.

Refusing to let the delays fill my heart with despair, I strapped myself in, determined to fight for both our dreams. I would have done anything to keep hope afloat. If your air mask malfunctioned, I would have given you mine without a thought. I wanted to be the one to bring you to safety.

We made it through several turbulences before our final plane made a sudden drop in altitude, forcing me to come to terms with my worst fear. The denial was spilling through the cracks of my foundation. 

It took our last transit for me to understand that nothing could keep you from making the wrong turn. You kept adding luggage that could not be repacked and continuously refused assistance from help counters along the way. 

I had lost sight of my own plans and itinerary. Standing at that terminal, I made up my mind. 

It was time for me to put myself first and book a flight of my own. Like any other passenger, I deserved a trip where my choices were not restricted or forced to compromise. 

It took several errors and frozen screens, but I made it to my new boarding gate. 

There was no looking back. No last calls to make. 

Suddenly, my ears feel a popping sensation as I hear my name being called. I stand up and make my way to the front. The owner, having wrapped everything nicely, gave me my to-go bag. 

“Don’t wait too long to come back! Why don’t you bring that friend of yours with you next time!” a courteous smile on his face. 

“I will! Have a nice day!” I replied. A few seconds later, I was on my way. I pondered over my plans for the afternoon. 

With no surprise, I reorganized my thoughts back to a few minutes ago. Will there be a time when we visit the café together, like before? How soon could that be? 

Probably not right away. It’s too late to take a return flight to your side. For now, there are no more connections to make, given that the borders are to remain on lockdown.

Perhaps it was for the best that we ended up at different terminals. 

It leaves the possibility of finding a different way, back to each other. After all, we all started off as strangers.

Nothing is stopping us from creating a new and improved flight connection together. Till then…

                                                          –     Ready for Take Off      –

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2024 – Winter

This soup has a doggy taste!

Author: Erika Castrillón Morales

[Content warning: animal sacrifice]

Every April, we climbed the mango tree. It was on the terrace of the house I grew up in. Green-yellowed leaves decorated its arms, but the mangoes were always late, or they never arrived. We climbed and played in its branches, hoping not to fall. I used to slide my little fingers through the crackered bark to peel the cortex. If you were lucky enough, you could make tiny balls with the tree’s resin to play with. All the kids in the neighborhood loved that tree. Every one of us had a story to tell about it. 

***

In August 1976, Antonia Villalba moved to Barranquilla, a bustling and noisy city like all the ones in the north of Colombia. She was a tall, pale, rounded woman, strong, and bulky. She came from Bogotá, the capital, or ‘la nevera,’[1]as we called it in the Coast for its cold weather. Too cold for people accustomed to more than 34 degrees Celsius in a tropical country.  Antonia had also lived and worked in the countryside of Santander, for many years. Well accustomed to the hard work, the woman knew how to ride a horse, how to raise a family, and specially, how to cook with gifted hands. After my grandfather died, my thirteen-years-old mom took control of the house. To have an income that could ease the hunger, she began renting out some rooms in the family’s household. Antonia moved in with her three kids and her parents. Her husband, a truck driver, had died in a traffic accident. She decided to move to Barranquilla, where an estranged cousin had settled in the city and also married a truck driver.

Antonia always loved to earn her own money; she juggled between jobs to take care of her family. Having set up a small convenience store in our house, she started selling roasted food.  Antonia bought the goods at the market. Early in the morning, she got on crowded buses, filled with people from various backgrounds: employees, foreigners coming from nearby areas and small villages, domestic workers, salespeople, merchants, and another informal workforce.  Successful businesspeople, public servants and doctors never took the bus, they took taxis or drove their own fancy vehicles. The market was a conglomerate of people coming from all over town. You could find city halls and offices next to hospitals and food stands, decorated with long queues of people waiting to enter any of those buildings. Street sellers offered bracelets and rosaries in the middle of copious fragrances. The odor of smoked fish appealed to those craving a hearty breakfast after running errands for a while. If you were looking for something lighter, you could try a buñuelo with hot coffee. The city was, and still is, a living being in which all citizens acted like organs making the body function. At 9 am, Antonia was back home with big bags of fresh vegetables and groceries to sell. José, her eldest son, had already started serving customers. 

Weekends were special as she set up plastic tables and chairs on the terrace for people to come and eat. The tables were nicely dressed up with floral pattern coverings and embroidered ends. On Fridays, she came from the market with a goat kid. During the afternoon, you could hear the poor animal howling when Antonia killed it. She then made pepitoria[2] to sell or some roasted goat on Saturdays. She also came with roosters. She plucked the chickens and seasoned them with a red paste made with bell peppers, onions, achiote and salt. She then put the chicken on grills and sold them with salty potatoes. Of all the food she made to sell, she always gave some to my mom. Sometimes Antonia gave even more than what she owed her in rent. In the end, it was a transaction based on solidarity. 

On Sundays, Antonia made a humongous soup pot, a sancocho. She knew her cousin spent Sundays with her husband’s colleagues and their families. Antonia invited them to come around and buy her some soup. They accepted the invitation and were all delighted with the food and friendly time. It then became a tradition to have lunch at our house on Sundays to enjoy the roasted chicken, goat or soup, or any other exquisite dish that Antonia made, thinking about her old Santander. Those dishes included in every stir or cut the traces of nostalgia. 

Antonia’s youngest son was a little boy called Juanito, five years old, and there wasn’t any difference between him and a Tasmanian devil. He looked just like his mom, and he was born just before his father’s passing. He ran around the house, playing in the dirt and driving everyone crazy. That boy was pure chaos, but sometimes, he was lonely. His mother was busy making some money, so she could not watch him all day. His siblings had school or were helping Antonia. The boy’s loneliness and sadness grew more and more evident. Antonia felt guilty about her son, so she came one afternoon with a puppy to keep Juanito company. They called it Zeón. Juanito and the dog were very alike, messy, and dirty. With its tender eyes, the creature captured everyone’s smiles and caresses. 

One Sunday, it was the birthday of one of the truck drivers. Antonia woke up early, as she anticipated many people that day. She had promised them to make the best sancocho one had ever tasted. An array of potatoes, sweet, and green plantains, calabaza, yam and cassava.  Gallina criolla and carne salada, a meal which ‘industrial’ could never define.Word about the famous soup spread all over near neighborhoods. At 7 AM, Antonia had already cut all the vegetables for the soup. The meat had been soaking in spices overnight. José started piling firewood in the backyard. Antonia carried the pot and put it in the fire. The smell of the smoke flew around the houses. People passed by in their Sunday best and said hello to Antonia on their way to the Mass. 

That day Juanito was more restless than usual. As a tornado, he ran with the dog from here to there in the house while Antonia kept asking him to stay still. Giving up, she told him to go out and play with the neighbor’s son. Juanito took the dog with him.

José was sitting next to the pot to make sure it wasn’t going to burn. When the soup was ready, José put a lid on it and went to help his mother with another task. It had already been a while when Juanito and the dog came back. They started running and playing around the soup pot. Suddenly, a clattering noise and a pitiful bark resound in the backyard. José heard Juanito’s laugher, and he knew something was wrong. He went running to see what happened. Shocked, José cried for help “¡Mamá, mamá, Juanito tiró el perro en la sopa!”[3] Luckily, the soup was no longer boiling. Antonia, shaking nervously, hurried up to take the dog out of the soup while menacing Juanito with a beating. Juanito, seeing that his mom was not joking, ran as fast as a runaway puppy. With his short arms and legs, he climbed the mango tree. He then waited at the top, looking at the bottom where Antonia held a heavy belt. We also had stories concerning our mothers’ belt.

Antonia yelled “¡te me bajas inmediatamente de ahí, culicagado!”[4] She was furious. Her pale face turned red with anger. At the corner of the street, the trucks’ honks were loud. People arrived on foot and some others getting out of taxis and private cars. It was too late to start cooking another soup pot. And how could you explain such a mischief? Antonia gave Juanito a last look. “¡Te bajas, o te bajo, y ya verás!”[5] The boy got out of the tree. His mother grabbed him by the ears and ordered Teresa, the middle sister, to clean and dress him up. José took the dog and gave it a bath. 

People came into the house and warmly greeted Antonia. Everyone took a seat. Teresa started serving the delicious-looking soup. Plates were passed from hand to hand, with lemon slices and rice. Pepitorias, arepas and some aguapanela were served. They were laughing and making jokes. Through the radios, some Vallenato and Cumbia were heard. Someone took a bottle of aguardiente and made a grimace at its bitter taste. It was a festive and happy Sunday in the Colombian coast. After quick belt strokes, Juanito continued to happily play with the dog. But away from the soup. The guests kept coming for more soup and more rice. What an amazing cook Antonia was! Everyone who attended the party that day kept talking about it for months; years passed, and everyone remembered Sundays at Antonia’s. But no one dared to say: ¡Esta sopa sabe a perro![6] 


[1] Spanish word for fridge. 

[2] Colombian dish typical of the Santander Department made from the goat’s entrails, blood, and hard-boiled eggs. 

[3] “Mom, mom, Junito threw the dog into the soup.” 

[4] “Get down, culicagado” (Colombian slang word for a little kid, usually a mischievous one). 

[5] “Get down or you will see.”

[6] This soup has a doggy taste.

Comments by the jury:

“I think it was a lovely rendering of a funny anecdote through adult eyes; it’s very self-aware and socially-driven”

“I appreciated the details of the food, how she made it and what she used in the recipes. … I was thankful that the dog survived its encounter with the soup!”

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2024 – Winter

“Shall Statues Overturn?”

Author: Anonymous

I have been thinking of museums of the mind and of the art in my head. 

When I looked this morning at those pristine buildings with marble statues, I was faced back with a sort of blankness. As if every colour on a palette had been mixed and created a white of the purest kind, where one would have expected brown to appear. 

The statues were in a row. Two pairs of two, flanking the sides of the front facade. They acted as columns, supporting the weight of the entire roof upon their shoulders. What dignity, what pride, what strength… what made them bear it all so easily? Was it their doubling, the fact that they could see themselves physically in someone else? 

Would I be surer of myself, if I had such a presence to affirm my own existence? 

But, then what… obsessed with my own image, a Narcissus of some sort? No, becoming a flower was decidedly not the aim, though it would not be the most disagreeable fate of all. 

And oh, to be a tree… like statues, immobile. But they spoke if you knew how to listen. I used to talk to a tree in my schoolyard as a child, and she talked back. I cried all the tears in my body when they cut her down.

They would not cut down these statues, I thought. Monuments were built to last. Not like little children’s dreams.

Below those statue columns, I saw a mother and her son on the left and a man holding a sword on the right. As stoic as stone, he was every virtue personified.

And the mother?

She was smiling, seeming happy. “’ Seeming’, Madam? Nay, it is” …

Was she happier than the statues of the Virgin Mary? In her quiet, unknown love, not one of public property – not placed in cathedrals and sung to, nor on little altars in Italian houses. Standing on a tall facade, looked at, but rarely talked to. 

Who would talk to statues anyway… they’re all dead. 

But shall they overturn, shall they rise? I would like to hear them speak, of faraway lands and of languages long extinguished. Would they even be bound by our time? 

Just like Adam and Eve were born of clay, we could become statues when we die. Not in the way the so-called “great men” do. Not in a cold, dead way. We could be of cracked stone, and smile to the wind, and let the birds sit on our shoulders. We could then whisper to the people passing by words of wisdom, and give them a little luck, for their lovelorn lives. 

Yes, I have been thinking of where museums begin and where they end, and I now think I know. I shall whisper it in your ear, somewhere, sometime, soon. 

Images: ©️ Anonymous author
Images: ©️ Anonymous author

Images: © Anonymous author

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2024 – Winter

Parasouls

Author: Nathalie Hayes

“This has to be one of my absolute favourite places,” She sighed.
“You always say that!” He replied. Dismissal was his favourite type of response; attack, his favourite type of defence. All in all, he was difficult to converse with. But she consciously let it slide off of her, as she took in the bathers immersing themselves in the dark, sparkly emerald water. She anticipated the cool, liquid touch on her skin, the absolution of emersion.

The sun was high in the sky and you had to squint against the reflections on the lake, that magnificent body of water surrounded by mountain peaks, ludicrous in its beauty, and the glare of the yellow parasols, with their warmed canvas smell.

The ice tinkled in her cocktail. She had wanted a drink before the swim. He was taking a break from alcohol. Buoyed by a little buzz, she smiled at him to make their way towards the hot concrete steps upon which lay the sunbathers, post-swimmers, readers, towards the metal access ladder. One woman was holding court to a bored couple about the trials of having holidayed with her sister’s children. Her nasal, whiny drone ploughed forward, pulled along by how hilarious she was finding herself. On and on about the tedious detail of her banal existence. She tried to catch his eye, but he was mouthing some sort of stream of consciousness that he couldn’t divulge should she ask him what he was thinking. She nudged him, tried to point with her eyes, an attempt at a shared joke, but he just replied with a loud “What?”, and she let it drop, along with her black summer dress.

If only humans could be as enduring as nature. The mountains and the lake remained unblemished and generous, as they always have and always would be. Quite the contrast to the inevitable decay of the body, the waning of relationships, so fickle. The water understood acceptance as she lowered herself in, quick gasp, before delivering herself to the pleasure of being held, lifted, loved unconditionally.

Comments by the jury:

“I also enjoyed the implicit descriptions. We see and feel the black summer dress without needing to be told what it looked like.”

“Very Sally Rooney-esque in the phrasing and atmosphere. … I thought the unconditional love of the lake was a lovely subject.”

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2024 – Winter

Phantom

Author: Chloé Leresche

[Content warning: blood and gore depictions, physical injuries, death/death of child]

She tries to cry out, but it is swallowed by the wet and harsh fabric. Her movements too, restrained by the drapes, drowning her in her panicked heat and cold sweat. She has to go find him. She must. He was right there, going into the woods. She fights, her frustrated and desperate groans increasing as she suffocates in the darkness that envelops her, crushes her. She must catch him before he goes. She must save him. He’s so small, the forest is going to eat him. 

The breath leaves her lungs as she meets the ground. For a moment, all is quiet, and only the heavy dark exists above her. There is nothing, and he is not here. Only then does she feel the cold lurking, sliding on her skin as would the embrace of a dead man, biting in her flesh under her sweat. Her son is not here. The gasping breath she takes feels like void filing her lungs, like toxic mist, making its painful way through her insides, to her rotten liver. 

The floor under her is hard, flat, steady. You are not outside. You are not with him. You are just lying there, a miserable, pitiful childless mother. Slowly, she raises her arm, and, as if it was waiting for her to calm down, the drape swipes gently to the ground. Now free, she puts her hand on her stomach. She does not wince under the cold contact of those lifeless fingers; she does not tremble as the cold kisses her all. She lies there for a while, staring at a cold dark that does not look back at her. 

Like a phantom, she gets up, and quietly, she leaves. 

She is awakened by the sun, this time. She sees it through her closed eyelids, feels it warming up hair. Then the sounds come to her, the birds’ distant but beautiful songs and the gentle touch of the leaves dancing in unison. She can smell the moss before even opening her eyes. There is a bit of morning dew on her dress and shoulders, small droplets. Some ants are walking down her bony arm, and there are other insects on her, tickling her, already claiming her body. 

A shadow passes by, behind some bushes, not far. It is quiet and light, innocent. It stops for an instant, and the small head of a young doe appears, framed by the vibrant green leaves. Its curious eyes judge her, body ready to jump and run away, but not too fearful, almost playful, even. For a moment, all is quiet, and only exist the fawn, herself, and the rays of light filtering through the tall trees above. Is this what the medieval poets envisioned, speaking of virgins and unicorns in clearings? The fawn spooks and runs. 

Like a phantom, she gets up, and quietly, she follows. She sees him from afar; frail silhouette standing before the cliff. The wind will catch him, it will grab his young limbs and throw him to his death. She calls him, yells, cries out, but the wind grabs her words, laughs at it and brushes it away. She runs, but the wind pushes back, not even bothered by her, not anything. He does not hear her, and she can only watch as the wind takes her son’s hand gently and whispers to him: “Fly.”. 

She opens her eyes in a gasp that is not quite hers. Completely still. For a moment, all is quiet, and only exists the blue of the sky above and the mocking laughter of the wind. 

She feels her crushed bones, her bleeding organs, her ribcage intertwined with her son’s, his bones puncturing her lungs. She found him, she’s happy. The wind got them, it’s happy. 

A phantom, she gets up, and quietly, she disappears. 

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2024 – Winter

Hopelessness or What’s the point

Author: Hopeful

I have always wanted children.

Ever since I can remember,

That has been my biggest dream.

Today. I feel utterly hopeless.

With World War III on our doorstep.

Climate change no one cares about.

A new form of dictator in the US.

I wanted to say he was an H***** 2.0

But my dad said I couldn’t compare the two.

And I think he’s right.

It is different.

But maybe also because it is less obvious today.

Deportation, and words, and walls are not like gas.

Though a wall was in Germany too.

I feel like so many people don’t care that much.

“It’s just four years,” they’ll say

Well, is it?

I was talking to my boyfriend earlier.

“What’s the point?” was our conclusion.

What’s the point of being careful and humane.

Why not take the plane and eat meat and take baths all the time

What’s the point about what we’re doing.

We want to give the world a better future.

We want to teach our children.

God, we just want to live.

But what’s the point?

When so many people vote for separation.

For climate oblivion

For women’s death.

What’s the point?

And honestly, I wanted to cheer my boyfriend up.

And I was struggling.

It all seems so bleak.

Do I really want to bring children to such a fucked-up world?

What is the point except making them suffer?

Kamala Harris wrote that only in the darkest of times

Can you see the stars in the sky.

And though I want to believe her.

I see the sky and I only see fog.

What is the point?

It is so much easier to be a careless human.

I don’t want to

I still have dreams.

I still want children.

But how selfish is that?

So, I ask you.

I ask the world.

The people out there who think like me.

What is the point?

Because I feel alone. I think the world feels alone too.

Left out.

We need now more than ever to find the point of all this.

And not to give up.

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2024 – Winter

Sonnet of the Huntress

Author: Amélie My-Linh Dauban

If another tells me, what a woman should be
Sure my mind I will lose – and I have no excuse,
As it would be no use – for that no one would choose
A savage soul like me, untamed and wild and free.


I the hunter he the prey, I’m a storm a fox,
I, who’d rather be loved, not just for my body
But my soul ; I, who’d rather be strong than pretty,
An anomaly, really, quite unorthodox.


Yet I have caught feelings for you, and that flame flashes
Before my eyes. Fearful anguish overwhelms me
This love is like a dagger in my heart, truly
I’ll let it consume me, shall I become ashes.


But first, take my heart and soul and trust, have it all
It’s all yours. Will you be the one to bring my fall?